Another hiatus – broken!

I’m back to dust the cobwebs off my page!

It has been a while and being busy just doesn’t cut it sometimes but that is my excuse. It is surprising since I’ve always been a firm believer that if you like something you would always find time for it no matter what.

So I should re-look into my priorities…

which leads me to this link I bump into today!

http://www.relevantmagazine.com/god/practical-faith/20-things-i-wish-id-known-my-late-twenties

No.7 totally applies to me. I am the lonely single in her twenties filling up her time with things to distract myself from the lonesome truth.

So I don’t rest. I don’t read romance stories although I do backslide on this once in a while (hormones). I don’t watch sappy movies with love and flowers in it. I just go out, exercise, make appointments, talk to anyone I know and spend time on everything but…myself.

I probably should reevaluate my lifestyle and choice of activities. Then another side of me would protest : but you’re having the time of your life, it’s FUN!

It’s always a raging battle inside and then people try guilt tripping you to doing things they think you SHOULD do. Thankfully I only feel guilty if I think I should have done the deed, which is, not all the time. I recover quickly from my bouts of guilt.

After all…things to do, right?

Back after a Breather

I have been missing classes before and after my Kinabalu trip, fitting in the time to complete my tasks at work and working out to get me ready for the climb.

Last night, I finally stepped into the gym and man it felt good, although I wasn’t as smooth or reacting as fast as I was before. The adrenaline and great sweat out worked for me.

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I have to say, the climb has definitely affected me, spiritually, mentally and physically. Right now, I’m thinking, I need to get back into the regime, to eat healthily, work out while having fun and living the lifestyle that improves my outlook in life!

While I was at the summit, all I could think of was “Wow. Thank you God for helping me reach the top. Your creation rocks ass.”

I felt a lot lighter, better and ready to take on the world. Not entirely sure why but it seemed important for me to list out the things I want to do, accomplish, improve as well as what I want to do with myself.

Strange that one climb made such a difference in thought and outlook. I have another amazing adventure waiting for me in October. Will that too, be the tipping point of my life?

I can’t wait.

I’ve climbed Mount Kinabalu!

One of the top “things-to-do” that I have wanted to achieve since I was 18 has finally been cleared!

So glad that I’m starting to fulfill my life dreams one by one.

The climb up was not immensely difficult, though it was not a walk in the park either. I find the hardest part at the last 700 metres to the summit. I was at the verge of giving up so many times. My stomach was growling with accumulated gasses and hunger; the wind was blowing cold air into my exposed face, I was tired both physically and mentally.

I really wanted to give up. Imagine if I did! I would have kicked myself silly for stopping just 700 metres away!

The thing that helped and made a difference was the constant voice of encouragement by a friend. She held my hand at the toughest point and stopped with me when I felt low. Then she would say “Are we ok now? Ready to move on?”

Another friend would also say “Ok let’s move forward” And he would say it no matter how many times we stop.

By the time I reach the top, I was unable to catch the sunrise, but oh boy, was the view wondrous. I was just in awe that 4,095 metres above ground and we did it.

My feel good moment at the top 🙂

Fun times at Home #7

My whole family loves animals, dogs being our favourite animal. So its not such a shock to know that we religiously keep to all of the “Dog whisperer’s” series. We always look forward to watching which weird dog Cesar’s gonna tame next, sometimes putting his moves on each other…because its entertaining like that.

A few scenarios that happened —

Mini fun time #1

Cesar was teaching a couple on how to raise a dog’s confidence by stroking under his chip with an upwards motion, rather than patting his head which is to put it down to its place.

Me : Whoa, I didn’t know that! I know another friend’s dog that needs to know its place!

Dad : *pats my head down firmly*

Me : OI!!!!!

Everybody laughs…har har very funny.

Mini fun time #2

Cesar was teaching a dog its boundaries and then the dog start acting up, Cesar immediately made his infamous shushing sound with the finger shoving gesture at the dog which always magically stops the dog in its tracks.

That got an immediate response from the rest of us.

Me : Mom! SSSH! SSH! No more snacks!

Mom : SSH! yourself! I won’t cook you dinner!

Both sisters SSH each other while rolling around the carpet…omg they’re weird….

Youngest sis : Hey remember the other dog we met at a friend’s house? Didn’t you try this on her?

Me : Oh yeah I did!

Youngest sis : yeah she refused to listen to her owner but you came in pointed your finger at her and she quietly sat down! You didn’t even make a sound!

Me : Oh yes I’m alpha, now bow to me slaves!!!

Both sisters : we are wormsssssss….

Ok, not true about the worms but I did say I’m alpha which everyone agrees…there is a real worm story! I’ll share next time!

Fun times at Home #6

Another fun time I remembered, I got home from a great night out with friends and of course we had a few drinks, I arrived home very happy.

It was late and the whole house was dark, I wanted to just lie on something cold and stumbled into my youngest sister’s room. I saw a motionless form covered in blankets and called out.

Me : Hey, Melanie….you awake?

Her : What kind of question is that?! Go away and leave me alone!

Me : Ahahahaha you’re awaaake!!! *jumps on bed*

Her : Get out, get out, get out! You stink!!!

Me : Noooooo, we’re familyyyyyyy….

I don’t know what happened after that but I know we ended up chit chatting the rest of the night away. Maybe we should do it again…

Fun times at Home #5

So I thought about which fun times would be fun to share and inadvertently create one this morning!

My youngest sister has great affections for her soft, sinkable bed. Its really comfortable, I’ve jumped on it a few times when she’s out. Ah fun times.

But of course that’s not today’s fun time post, this is what happened :

I have dressed up and just finished my oatmeal when my second sister slithered out her room. She looked at me and smiled…scarily.

Me : Why smile like that at me?!

Her : *smiles some more* *snorts and goes back into her room*

That reminded me that I have another sister who has not woken up…

I swung her room door with great aplomb and sang like Pavarotti

Me : Melanie…melanieeeeeee….MEEEEELANIEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~!!!!! ***

Young sis : *snores*

Oh well, not everyone likes opera.

 

***Names have been changed to protect her privacy.

Fun times at Home #3

My family and I like to speak in our own code, its greatly advantageous to us when we need to communicate to each other in public, we’re practically winners in charades and taboo. Its not cheating, its pretty clever!

So we have one that isn’t really a code, but mentioned pretty frequently :

“Let’s talk in the dark”

Its a literal reference, and more of a joke poking thing than anything.

How it came about

Version 1 (coz I can’t remember which was it)

One day my mom and I were having a drink while chatting outside her toilet door. We were laughing and gesturing wildly when out of the blue, she stood up and flick the switch off.

I was thinking – what the hell?!

Mom : Let’s talk in the dark–in the dark, in the dark, in the daaaaaark!

Me : NO WAY!

Version 2

We were young – ish. In the glory days of teen hood and we spent a lot of time at home than going out with friends. Which probably explains why there are so many stories about.

My mom likes to make up songs and most of the time the lyrics are just nonsense, but it rhymes, sticks in your head and you won’t sing anything else but that for the rest of the day. My sister has really large eyes and she would set it off on anyone to get things her way. So she flashed it at my mom one time and my mom immediately got into the singing mood…

Mom : (other sister name), has such big eyes, big black eyes that can see in the dark! In the dark, in the dark, in the daaaaaark!

Three of us : *bewildered*

Fun times at Home

I was hanging out with  my sister just the other night, we had a great barbeque dinner and beer afterwards with a few friends. I got home slightly tipsy, she had an ice blended mocha. So we thought that it would be a good idea to stay up the night chatting even though we both have an early day the next day for work.

Sister : Hey remember the time you and (other sister) wouldn’t give me a ride to the supermarket?

Me : Hmmmm, I didn’t?

Sister : Yeah you didn’t, I was yelling about how ungrateful the both of you are and scared the shit out of my friends. I ended up walking to the supermarket you know…

Me : Haha, good exercise!

Sister : Shut up, All the while, I was damn pissed off at the both of you and was muttering the whole walk to the supermarket. Even while I was buying groceries I was cursing your name! My friends were standing just a wee bit farther away from me and asked me if I was ok.

Me : Haha, heck yeah, its rare they see a goth in rage!

Sister : Then I thought oh its almost dinner time, the both of you might be hungry…I mean, WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?! I was pissed off with you and hated the both of you, and yet I made you dinner! I got home (I WALKED DAMMIT) then started cooking and prepared food for the both of you!! By the time I was done I just couldn’t be bothered anymore.

Me : HAHAHAHAHA

Because I can think of absolutely nothing at all…

Everything is on “action” mode now. Its a do or die mode, spend now and regret later. Unfortunately I wish I can say the same for sex me now and ask me later, whoops, where did that came from. *snickers*

Its been an eventful time since I went AWOL from writing. Not that my writing misses me but I thought it would be nice of me to be considerate and drop by time to time. Yes, I am consoling myself, self gratification happens on a daily basis. It justifies my existence.

You know that saying, love yourself….or something. Only remembered that part, so I’ve been doing much self loving by:
1. Working out (picked up a new martial art)

2. Eating healthily (in moderation, junk food still exists, in fact I’m going to a fast food joint for lunch today, good lord yes…)

3. Dressing up

4. Buying more books (I need to find time to read them)

5. Downloading more ebooks

6. Spending money on random food

I sound like I’m getting over a break up. Which sounds pretty sad when there wasn’t anything going on to begin with. A big face palm is needed right now. Looking back I see what a busy social life I’m giving myself, my schedule is packed to the brim and I’m just so busy doing so many things and nothing at all (reading awesome comic books and finishing up the books I just started).

Yoda would’ve quote “Much life is needed for self, as self needs much life”.

Nerd, workaholic, and fitness junkie thou must not become.

Let me bring out my red carpet.

On a brighter note, bringing out the pessimist in me is strangely refreshing, I feel a lot better now.